My ex fiance broke off what I thought was a dreamy engagement, by email, with no warning or reason, then ghosted me. I thought it might be uplifting for me and others in a similar situation to hear some success stories about mums who had gone on to find love after heartbreak. I know the idea is to find worth in yourself first before trying to find a man but somewhere along the line my worth has become so tied-up in if I am loved that I just don’t know if I will ever do this. I want so badly to be happy, to forget about my ex-boyfriend and to move on and meet someone else. I am close to my family, but it’s the adult male company that I feel I need.
I do have a good job, own my own home, have some friends that I can call on, but no-one I feel especially close to, and hate feeling like a burden to them. I’m struggling to get myself out of the black hole and I don’t know where to turn to.
I know this is not a productive way to think, but it’s how I’m feeling at the minute. I am struggling to work, to sleep, I cry all the time and feel noting but desolate. I think about it all the time, and it brings out this deep sadness in me. It absolutely eats me up, even though my last partner and I only split a few weeks ago. Now I am single again, I am so, so concerned about not meeting anyone else, especially since I have children, and feel there is only a bleak future in front of me. I am sad it has ended, but know that ultimately it wouldn’t have worked long-term as he was much too emotional. I felt younger again, enjoyed new things in life, felt excited for the future and above all I enjoyed feeling like a family again. Our time together was actually really good for me, got me back to feeling normal again, filled my spare time, gave me a purpose and made me feel like I could be a good mum. My ex-husband and I separated in January 2018 and since then I’ve had a year long relationship with an unsuitable guy. I am 34, divorced and have two children, aged 7 and 2. Ladies I’m having a difficult time at the minute …
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